hazed

I am SO impatient.

Its eating at my poor little soul. I'm feeling rather stagnant at this stage in my life. I'm at a point where nothing exciting is in view, and I'm merely coasting along. I hope this changes. I want something amazing to happen. I know I'm working towards my dreams right now, but I'm not seeing much progress. It is taking me 4 years to get a 2 year degree, mostly because of health issues. I want to see my hard work pay off...but I don't want to have to continue on this road where I'm not seeing any progress. I think I'm over analytical. Do most 20 year olds think of their future/goals this much? No. Most of them are out enjoying life, while I'm in my room typing up a spreadsheet of my intended salary after graduation...something is seriously wrong! However, while I'm in here planning my life, I am enjoying what I have. Today was a successful day. I spent time with my neighbor, mostly chatting it up. Took her daughter to run errands with me, had pizza and went bowling with my lovely friends. I really enjoyed that! I lost the game, and I suck at shooting pool, but overall I really enjoyed it. Then did some church stuff. Saw the boyfriend for about 10 minutes, he was stressing over his 2nd interview, which is tomorrow. I told him he deserves it, and I personally know that Heavenly Father sees his hard work, and will reward him for it. If not now, eventually. He works very hard, and is successful at what he does. I know that he has this! Keep him in your prayers. As for me and my job interview, I have not heard back. I hope to by Wednesday, Thursday at the latest. They asked me if I was bilingual, which I am not. I am thinking that if they don't hire me that will be the reason why. :sigh: should have taken Spanish in high school, instead of German. Ja! Nicht sehr klug! No regrets....! I saw the movie The Blindside, today. I enjoyed it. Its proof that we can truly overcome all obstacles that we face. We can find success if we keep our eyes opened, use the talents that we are blessed with, and focus! Loved it.

LOVE this song!
"Praise You In This Storm"
by Casting Crowns

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth