current.

Had a bad day again, said you would no understand. spilled the coffee broke a shoelace, smeared the lipstick on her face, slammed the door and said i'm sorry i, had a bad day again.

Pretty much today has been one of the worst days I've had in a while, and it wasn't even that bad. Started out decent, was doing well at work meeting my sales goals and taking it easy. Somehow I ended up out of balance, which means I'm facing possible termination. Hopefully we can get it cleared up, soon. This means I really need to pray that I get the job with the school.

My evening plans were cancelled, which was a bummer because I've always made an effort to put people first, and when they ditch me last minute it irritates me to a great extent. Agh! I went to a prayer group at my church. I got to discuss my current spiritual/emotional situation. Regarding all aspects of my life, I'm stagnant. Merely coasting along, feeling rather hopeless. I was more then willing to accept the advice that I was given, and will be applying it to my life as of now. Also, I got to say the closing prayer which is always fun :)

I live 10 miles away from where the Irving Stadium was. I was discussing the emotional attachment some Texans have with it, and the implosion. Someone I spoke with (can't remember who...) said that it was a great reminder to each of us, from God, to take a look at what empty lots we have in our lives. The Irving Stadium hasn't been used for a while now, but they left the hollow building standing until Sunday April 11th. I enjoyed going to my sister's house and to church, because I pass the stadium. Thinking about what empty buildings you have in your life, what is it that you pass by on a regular basis and isn't being used...? What are are you holding onto in your past? Its a nice thought. Time to implode them all, because chances are they could be whats holding you back in your life! Move on :)

In other news, I've given up facebook until next tuesday night. I'll be spending my usual facebook time in my room praying! I'm striving to pray more, that way I'll be stronger in my faith, and be able to make the right decisions that will push me to live out what God has planned for me.

I'm very much looking forward to Thursday. Girls day with Summer. We're going to have lunch at a new restaurant, and watch movies while the kids are at school. Of course baby Ethan will be with us! I love seeing my little scooter!

This is it.

-bee.

p.s.

I want something more.