outrider.

i would like to start this blog off with a prayer request for the family of Eva Dien Brine Markvoort. She passed away on March 27th 2010, due to CF related complications. CF affects less than 200,000 people in the US population. The death rate for CF patients is apx 484/ year in the US. The common cause of death is lung disease. The average life span of someone with this chronic illness currently sits at 37, however i know people well beyond their 40s that are alive & well :) Eva was 26 years old, had a double lung transplant in 2006, and was overly ecstatic about her life. I know that this is a hard time for her family, and I pray that they will be comforted in knowing that she is in a much better place, pain free. through her live journal, she impacted so many CFers and gave them hope, as well as the realistic side of things. she was beautiful, optimistic and honest. she will be missed.

As for me and my health, my chest pains have started to fade. Antibiotics must be doing something right. Hopefully I can avoid being admitted, my goal is to make it to 1 year without being in the hospital. November 14th 2010. 230 days :) this week: i will take all of meds, the right way. without slipping. i am going to try my hardest to do all that i can to be as healthy as i can.

Great Strides always plays with my emotions. I'm so blessed to be as healthy as I am, but at the same time i feel so guilty when I see others like me, but not as healthy. Its hard for me. There are things I don't like to tell my family, or friends, because I know they won't understand.

I may have an life expectancy of 37, but I've proven the doctors wrong, time and time again. (:

Moving along! the BF and I had a nice little dinner. we have been together for 3 months now, and I can honestly say these 3 months have been nothing less than amazing. He is so caring and hilarious (: my 2 favorite traits in a person. we haven't argued, or anything dramatic, which is always a good sign. my family likes him...which NEVER happens... so yay :)

my plans for the week:
monday- register for summer classes & fhe.
tuesday- work 1230-630 bankkk.
wednesday-work 1230-630 bankkk.
thursday- golfing, if weather permits. haven't been in a while, since my shoulder started acting up. then work @ 300 7-11.
friday-work 10-630 bankkk. 300 7-12.
i'm pretty sure my vacation starts on saturday!

was gonna go out to Heber City to visit a friends family, but since i have an upper resp. infection i'll stay home and play it safe.

Church was amazing, like always. edifying. Shared my testimony of patience & faith in the Lord.
i'll be teaching a VBS class this summer, this will be my 3rd summer in a row! This year it will be the preschoolers, I'm so excited. The theme is uhmm...ranch-style. and the main scripture is James 1:5... one of my favs! I was able to catch up on my tithing today, which is most definitely a good thing, even though I'm a greedy little child. Its a commandment, so I will do it :)

this week i'm going to try to be my best, be an example, get my priorities straight, and have fun

"If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him."
-James 1:5

diligently seek the Lord, turn to Him with confidence, knowing that His way is right, and His will be done. Having faith is NOT believing that God will grant us our every wish, but that His answer will always be the best for us. We sometimes pray for things & expect them to fall into place immediately, or we ignore the things that Heavenly Father wants for us because we are so set in our own ways.... pray with real intent to know what is right, to know the truth, and it will be manifested to you by the spirit of the holy ghost.

i sound crazy.


-becker.