here's a song i really like, was just singing it in my head.
enjoy :)
Draw me close to you
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear you say that I'm your friend
You are my desire
No one else will do
Cause nothing else can take your place
To feel the warmth of your embrace
Help me find the way
Bring me back to you
You're all I want
You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want
Help me know you are near
Friday, April 23, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
laugh.
:]
today was a blast. ran some errands, and went to the mall with my sister. hoping that tmrw's interview goes well. yuhh! not sure what my weekend plans are.
my boyfriend is indeed amazing, fyi.
aside from that, nothing exciting happened today. all the excitement has been pushed to next weekend & i'm ok with that! Yuh!
my back is killing me!
I love being a daughter of God, granted I make mistakes like everyone else, but lately I feel like with this faith that I have now, I really can do anything I set my mind to.
life is indeed beautiful, i'm so blessed.
Since the creation of the world, God's invisible qualities -- his eternal power and divine nature -- have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.
— Romans 1:20
the man was too afraid to fly, so he never did land.
-beckers
today was a blast. ran some errands, and went to the mall with my sister. hoping that tmrw's interview goes well. yuhh! not sure what my weekend plans are.
my boyfriend is indeed amazing, fyi.
aside from that, nothing exciting happened today. all the excitement has been pushed to next weekend & i'm ok with that! Yuh!
my back is killing me!
I love being a daughter of God, granted I make mistakes like everyone else, but lately I feel like with this faith that I have now, I really can do anything I set my mind to.
life is indeed beautiful, i'm so blessed.
Since the creation of the world, God's invisible qualities -- his eternal power and divine nature -- have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.
— Romans 1:20
the man was too afraid to fly, so he never did land.
-beckers
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
gibberish.
take me to the lake, take me to the park, fly so high im in heaven alive, hit so hard i cant even feel, whats this about and tell me, is it real. show me where to go and what i'll find, give me an answer, show me a sign. take me by the hands and make me understand what exactly went down, tell me if you're waiting on the game, tell me if you're feelings are of shame. guide me to the light, teach me wrong from right, what is fate and is it ever to late to find it, am i too young or am i just right, come over and hold me close tonight. wipe my tears and justify my fears, and expect the same, and tell me we'll make it to fame. give me something to hope for, something to strive toward, don't let me down, because im hoping this is what ive found. dont tell me its all fake, dont tell me its okay unless you know ill see you again someday.
xoxo
sometimes the greatest things in life, cant be seen. its a contradiction within itself. you cant touch it, but you can feel it. you cant see it, but its there. i think apart of the reason why many people deny Christianity is because they are too afraid to trust in something that isnt concrete, well the Lord almighty is concrete, we just cant see him. we see his glory all around. why should we believe in God when the world is full of skepticism? because we need to live for him, not other people, stop caring what other people think. i had an amazing experience at school the other day, i inspired someone to speak up about their religion, instead of being ashamed of it. dont be ashamed of the gospel, its our light and salvation. be grateful for what we have and never deny our Savior, Peter denied him three times in one night, and realized that he couldnt survive alone, he needed the Lord and through him he brought 3000 people to be saved.
my definition of life:
living for others, pleasing God, waking up each day excited to see what God has in store, a series of trial & error, whether or not you're going to let satan hold your sins & regrets against you, or whether you're going to accept the fact that Christ forgives you, and holds nothing against you. having fun but keeping your intentions good, laughing at things that arent even funny, jammin out in the car, painting, and most of allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
life is love. life is God. God is love.
hold your thoughts close and deep inside you, dear.
carved from the masters hand, of plain dirt and sand
with an intense emotion of spiritual being
guiding us carefully, not to crack the surface
walking aside us, hand in hand
going back to Christ, with all our might
an angelic smile, of encapsulating beauty
why are we drawn into this world of pain?
plump lips of ruby and red, tawny eyes, full of passion and ecstasy
is that my prophecy?
how cruel is it, that he tries to tempt, how amazing is it, that His love is everlasting
you have seen far too many broken dreams, to imagine your own
you've seen your world crumble to pieces, too ashamed to step out and pick them up
the pain is unbearable, simply untrue,
the pain isnt inside of you, its a thought that hes given to drive you from the Lord, a blessing in disguise, from a man of temptation and lies.
Lord of all the desires of my heart, no others can drive me to depart.
Your love, Oh Lord, fills my heart with the blood of the cross
whisper your words late at night, when you think no one is listening, He will be the light.
Hallowed be thy name, faith in you with no worries or shame, thy kingdom come, through you, all evil we shall overcome. Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven, pure and sincere, give us this day our daily bread, let it be our strength to continue in your name, forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors, i will owe no man anything but love and honor for one another, Lead us not unto temptation, but deliver us from the evil, for our conscience sake.
i'm feeling rather poetic, no?
not sure why, guess its all the sweetness in the tea, that i've been sipppin'.
xoxo
sometimes the greatest things in life, cant be seen. its a contradiction within itself. you cant touch it, but you can feel it. you cant see it, but its there. i think apart of the reason why many people deny Christianity is because they are too afraid to trust in something that isnt concrete, well the Lord almighty is concrete, we just cant see him. we see his glory all around. why should we believe in God when the world is full of skepticism? because we need to live for him, not other people, stop caring what other people think. i had an amazing experience at school the other day, i inspired someone to speak up about their religion, instead of being ashamed of it. dont be ashamed of the gospel, its our light and salvation. be grateful for what we have and never deny our Savior, Peter denied him three times in one night, and realized that he couldnt survive alone, he needed the Lord and through him he brought 3000 people to be saved.
my definition of life:
living for others, pleasing God, waking up each day excited to see what God has in store, a series of trial & error, whether or not you're going to let satan hold your sins & regrets against you, or whether you're going to accept the fact that Christ forgives you, and holds nothing against you. having fun but keeping your intentions good, laughing at things that arent even funny, jammin out in the car, painting, and most of allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
life is love. life is God. God is love.
hold your thoughts close and deep inside you, dear.
carved from the masters hand, of plain dirt and sand
with an intense emotion of spiritual being
guiding us carefully, not to crack the surface
walking aside us, hand in hand
going back to Christ, with all our might
an angelic smile, of encapsulating beauty
why are we drawn into this world of pain?
plump lips of ruby and red, tawny eyes, full of passion and ecstasy
is that my prophecy?
how cruel is it, that he tries to tempt, how amazing is it, that His love is everlasting
you have seen far too many broken dreams, to imagine your own
you've seen your world crumble to pieces, too ashamed to step out and pick them up
the pain is unbearable, simply untrue,
the pain isnt inside of you, its a thought that hes given to drive you from the Lord, a blessing in disguise, from a man of temptation and lies.
Lord of all the desires of my heart, no others can drive me to depart.
Your love, Oh Lord, fills my heart with the blood of the cross
whisper your words late at night, when you think no one is listening, He will be the light.
Hallowed be thy name, faith in you with no worries or shame, thy kingdom come, through you, all evil we shall overcome. Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven, pure and sincere, give us this day our daily bread, let it be our strength to continue in your name, forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors, i will owe no man anything but love and honor for one another, Lead us not unto temptation, but deliver us from the evil, for our conscience sake.
i'm feeling rather poetic, no?
not sure why, guess its all the sweetness in the tea, that i've been sipppin'.
first
of all...
JEFF: don't be reading my blog, please! bahaha.
in conclusion,
sincerely insincere,
beckers
JEFF: don't be reading my blog, please! bahaha.
in conclusion,
sincerely insincere,
beckers
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
forget.
Yippeeee.
Today was a great day! I had a wonderful lunch with my wonderful boyfriend. I love spending time with him, the conversations that we have, the quirky expressions that he makes, I love all of it! We had Pho (pronounced Fuh) which is a delicious Vietnamese noodle soup. Then I jetted off to the bank, had a pretty short shift today, 4 hours! It was a slow day, but time went by fast. Enjoyed some down time with my co-workers. After work, I decided not to go to prayer meeting, because I'm short on money this week & would rather not spend what I do have on gas. So I watched a movie & had dinner with the boyfriend. He makes me laugh so much that my lungs hurt, for once a body ache that I don't mind! Ha. He did get a call about the job promotion, they're going to call him back soon, so keep it in your prayers! As for me, no word...yet :) Keeping my fingers crossed! Hmm. My blog is so uninteresting...!
Listening to Taylor Swift, woot woot.
The BF bought me a purse for my bday, and of course I asked if I could have it early, hes just that wonderful! So yeahhh.
I'm so flippin' happy. Today was such a good day. 2 decent days in a row :) I'm starting to feel like my normal self again! woot woot!
I'm so blessed to be a loved daughter of God :)
sincerely sincere,
bex
Today was a great day! I had a wonderful lunch with my wonderful boyfriend. I love spending time with him, the conversations that we have, the quirky expressions that he makes, I love all of it! We had Pho (pronounced Fuh) which is a delicious Vietnamese noodle soup. Then I jetted off to the bank, had a pretty short shift today, 4 hours! It was a slow day, but time went by fast. Enjoyed some down time with my co-workers. After work, I decided not to go to prayer meeting, because I'm short on money this week & would rather not spend what I do have on gas. So I watched a movie & had dinner with the boyfriend. He makes me laugh so much that my lungs hurt, for once a body ache that I don't mind! Ha. He did get a call about the job promotion, they're going to call him back soon, so keep it in your prayers! As for me, no word...yet :) Keeping my fingers crossed! Hmm. My blog is so uninteresting...!
Listening to Taylor Swift, woot woot.
The BF bought me a purse for my bday, and of course I asked if I could have it early, hes just that wonderful! So yeahhh.
I'm so flippin' happy. Today was such a good day. 2 decent days in a row :) I'm starting to feel like my normal self again! woot woot!
I'm so blessed to be a loved daughter of God :)
sincerely sincere,
bex
Monday, April 19, 2010
rotten.
slept 54.17% of the day. starting next monday i'll be working from 2-6. i was hoping to take some classes this summer, but i'm not too sure what my schedule will be like. going to meet with an advisor thursday, hopefully. had a lovely dinner with at the boyfriend's sisters casa. played scattergories, scattagories... (??) for the first time, and my goodness does that game stress me out! its really fun to play though, might have to suggest it for my fams next get together. came home and managed to be slightly productive. applied for a few openings at a few places, and looked up information on scholarships available. hopefully something will land in front of me, so that i can continue to work towards my goal of transferring to a university. looking forward to getting back in the routine of working...
Baby Ethan is 3 months old TODAY. i cannot believe three months ago i was fretting around at Baylor Hospital, camera in hand, waiting to meet the little blessing that he is. he has grown SO much. he's eating cereal now, laughing and cooing, smiling and he is able to lift his head and he is starting to get the desire to hold his bottle. he has provided us with so much joy, and i'm so thankful to my father in heaven that he was born healthy and has been healthy these past 3 months. i can't wait to see the little sucker when he turns a year old! (: so so so adorable.
mom took my car today, which was good because i ended up saving money by staying at home :)
tomorrow consists of pho for lunch, work then hopefully jetting to irving for some prayer time with the sister & close friends. i love tuesdays
“Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow - that is patience.” - source unknown
i love that. especially since i've been trying to grow more patient. right now, things are slow & hard for me, and i'm striving to endure them, so that i can truly learn the importance of faith & patience in the Lord.
easier said than done, thats for sure.
Love so amazing, so divine
Demands my soul, my life, my all
and the beauty and the shame
in the glory of His name
Oh the wonderful cross
- The Wonderful Cross
Love&rockets
flicka
Baby Ethan is 3 months old TODAY. i cannot believe three months ago i was fretting around at Baylor Hospital, camera in hand, waiting to meet the little blessing that he is. he has grown SO much. he's eating cereal now, laughing and cooing, smiling and he is able to lift his head and he is starting to get the desire to hold his bottle. he has provided us with so much joy, and i'm so thankful to my father in heaven that he was born healthy and has been healthy these past 3 months. i can't wait to see the little sucker when he turns a year old! (: so so so adorable.
mom took my car today, which was good because i ended up saving money by staying at home :)
tomorrow consists of pho for lunch, work then hopefully jetting to irving for some prayer time with the sister & close friends. i love tuesdays
“Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow - that is patience.” - source unknown
i love that. especially since i've been trying to grow more patient. right now, things are slow & hard for me, and i'm striving to endure them, so that i can truly learn the importance of faith & patience in the Lord.
easier said than done, thats for sure.
Love so amazing, so divine
Demands my soul, my life, my all
and the beauty and the shame
in the glory of His name
Oh the wonderful cross
- The Wonderful Cross
Love&rockets
flicka
Sunday, April 18, 2010
revival
today was most definitely what i needed!
i was congested & coughing last night, but managed to sleep in! it felt so great to finally be able to sleep! woke up to a call from the boyfriend, who apparently doesn't understand that when you call someone in the morning they're using their sleepy-i-just-woke-up voice...he kept saying "are you okay? are you sick" haha. not sick. so we made our plans for the day, which was pretty much: lazy. my concern was that my room was a mess, and for once he wanted to hang out at my house. we're usually out & about or hanging out at his place. he totally caught me off guard, but i was so sleepy and didnt even bother trying to clean. he came over, we talked, snuggled, (he fell asleep- i checked my email and looked some stuff up online), grabbed lunch & watched Lost. i've been fretting a lot about being able to talk to him about stuff. Like, i'm kind of scared to tell him how i feel sometimes because i don't want to upset him. We haven't argued or anything like that, but i don't want to seem ungrateful. so we had this really good conversation and i was able to tell him stuff that i was afraid to share. like how things would be if he were to be deployed, or him offering to buy me stuff. i don't NEED anything! i have so much stuff right now, its ridiculous. & i don't want him to think that i want him to spend money on me. it could go to paying a bill or something, not me! and if he's deployed i'll take things slow, and pray more so than ever before. after all, thats all i can do, right?
i love him!
anyway, moving along.
i was just reminded that in 11 days i will be 21. how will my life change? will i start drinking and going to bars?
i think not! who knows! i'm excited. 21 is big...i thought i would never make it this far and i'm almost there. i've been so blessed!
i'm so flippin' excited. things are really looking up, i guess i just needed a relaxing day, like today, to clear my mind and stuff. hoping to figure out my summer schedule, whether or not i'll be taking classes & etc.
Keep me in your prayers, i'm working towards a goal this week...
will write more about it later :) when i know more!
Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,
beck
i was congested & coughing last night, but managed to sleep in! it felt so great to finally be able to sleep! woke up to a call from the boyfriend, who apparently doesn't understand that when you call someone in the morning they're using their sleepy-i-just-woke-up voice...he kept saying "are you okay? are you sick" haha. not sick. so we made our plans for the day, which was pretty much: lazy. my concern was that my room was a mess, and for once he wanted to hang out at my house. we're usually out & about or hanging out at his place. he totally caught me off guard, but i was so sleepy and didnt even bother trying to clean. he came over, we talked, snuggled, (he fell asleep- i checked my email and looked some stuff up online), grabbed lunch & watched Lost. i've been fretting a lot about being able to talk to him about stuff. Like, i'm kind of scared to tell him how i feel sometimes because i don't want to upset him. We haven't argued or anything like that, but i don't want to seem ungrateful. so we had this really good conversation and i was able to tell him stuff that i was afraid to share. like how things would be if he were to be deployed, or him offering to buy me stuff. i don't NEED anything! i have so much stuff right now, its ridiculous. & i don't want him to think that i want him to spend money on me. it could go to paying a bill or something, not me! and if he's deployed i'll take things slow, and pray more so than ever before. after all, thats all i can do, right?
i love him!
anyway, moving along.
i was just reminded that in 11 days i will be 21. how will my life change? will i start drinking and going to bars?
i think not! who knows! i'm excited. 21 is big...i thought i would never make it this far and i'm almost there. i've been so blessed!
i'm so flippin' excited. things are really looking up, i guess i just needed a relaxing day, like today, to clear my mind and stuff. hoping to figure out my summer schedule, whether or not i'll be taking classes & etc.
Keep me in your prayers, i'm working towards a goal this week...
will write more about it later :) when i know more!
Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,
beck
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