revival

today was most definitely what i needed!

i was congested & coughing last night, but managed to sleep in! it felt so great to finally be able to sleep! woke up to a call from the boyfriend, who apparently doesn't understand that when you call someone in the morning they're using their sleepy-i-just-woke-up voice...he kept saying "are you okay? are you sick" haha. not sick. so we made our plans for the day, which was pretty much: lazy. my concern was that my room was a mess, and for once he wanted to hang out at my house. we're usually out & about or hanging out at his place. he totally caught me off guard, but i was so sleepy and didnt even bother trying to clean. he came over, we talked, snuggled, (he fell asleep- i checked my email and looked some stuff up online), grabbed lunch & watched Lost. i've been fretting a lot about being able to talk to him about stuff. Like, i'm kind of scared to tell him how i feel sometimes because i don't want to upset him. We haven't argued or anything like that, but i don't want to seem ungrateful. so we had this really good conversation and i was able to tell him stuff that i was afraid to share. like how things would be if he were to be deployed, or him offering to buy me stuff. i don't NEED anything! i have so much stuff right now, its ridiculous. & i don't want him to think that i want him to spend money on me. it could go to paying a bill or something, not me! and if he's deployed i'll take things slow, and pray more so than ever before. after all, thats all i can do, right?


i love him!

anyway, moving along.

i was just reminded that in 11 days i will be 21. how will my life change? will i start drinking and going to bars?
i think not! who knows! i'm excited. 21 is big...i thought i would never make it this far and i'm almost there. i've been so blessed!

i'm so flippin' excited. things are really looking up, i guess i just needed a relaxing day, like today, to clear my mind and stuff. hoping to figure out my summer schedule, whether or not i'll be taking classes & etc.


Keep me in your prayers, i'm working towards a goal this week...
will write more about it later :) when i know more!



Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,
beck