devotion [faith]

faith isn't faith, until its the only thing you're holding onto.

what is the difference between faith and hope?

hope is a desire full of anticipation, faith is trust combined with loyalty.

I suffer from lack of faith, I have a cup running over with hope. hope that God will answer our prayers is not merely enough, of course we want it to happen, but with hope, we may have our doubts. take your hope, replace it with faith, or add faith to it, and you will be pleasantly surprised. most of us are impatient, i ask for a job, and expect God to place one right in front of me, Sometimes we ask for things and don't realize when our prayers have been answered, or we wanted something else, and refuse to let go of what we initially desired.with faith, i know that when God deems it absolutely necessary, he will answer my prayers, he will test my faith by prolonging his answers, he will show me the answers in places i would not look where can you find faith?

first you must commit yourself to searching and indulging in the faith once it is found. for me, faith is found in the worldly beauty i see when i look into the stars, how can one not have faith in such a superior God, when he created all that we are and all that we see? i find faith in reading the word, there are verses that apply to EVERY situation, you want strength?

isaiah 33:2

BE GRACIOIUS O' LORD WE LONG FOR YOU BE OUR STRENGTH EVERY MORNING AND OUR SALVATION IN TIME OF DISTRESS.

you want to know about loving Christ?

Deuteronomy 10:12

WHAT DOTH THE LORD THY GOD REQUIRE OF THEE, BUT TO FEAR THE LORD THY GOD, TO WALK IN ALL HIS WAYS AND TO LOVE HIM AND TO SERVE IHIM WITH ALL THINE HEART AND SOUL

seek and you shall find, flip through the pages of the word and sure enough you will find faith, or it may just find you.

testing the faith-

God will place you in great trials, you may experience death of a close one, how will you handle it? will you turn to God in your time of need? or ask why me? why now? Finding faith can be easier than making a bowl cereal, or harder than a rock, you must first allow yourself to become vulnerable to Christ, knock down your barriers, let His spirit lift your soul .

finding faith is something that you need to put effort in, and trust me, the Lord All Mighty is always willing to meet you MORE than halfway.

faith is not a perfect knowledge of things, it is hope for things that remain unseen. ask and ye shall receive, seek and it shall be given unto you.

blog.

haven't posted in a while, mostly because i've been running around like a head with no chicken, or something like that. haha.

pretty much here's the DL on my life:

missed church on Sunday, had dinner with the boyfriend & friends.
monday, no work, hung out with the boyfriend after work, we went to bath & body works, watched a movie, and had din din.
tuesday, worked two shifts at le bank, went to prayer meeting.
wednesday, worked jeff's shift @ the bank so he could be with his fam, then met up with him and met some extended family members.
thursday, my day off. who knows what i'll end up doing! yay!
friday, work.
saturday, MY BDAY! yeah!

prayer meeting was really good this past tuesday. We are seeing some amazing things happen because of our devotion to God. Praying not only helps us become stronger, but it helps to remind us why we are here. my friend SGT Stewart FINALLY got his promotion, i'm way happy for him. that was a prayer answered. Jeff got his promotion, which is most def a praise. :) Baby Ethan is doing well, as well as the rest of my fam.


i have a ton of friends serving overseas, and i love them for it. i try to thank them, and remind them why their jobs are so important. but things are a little different now. i'm really trusting in God that if this is what He wants for me, then so be it. If it isn't then....well I havent thought about if it isnt because it feels so right.

i love the boyfriend.

health wise my allergies are acting up, no word on the Chase Bank position....nothing big happening. well :) i'm lying, but if i blogged about it then word might get out, and thats the last thing i want.

so in conclusion,
i've got some major decisions to make, coming up. i'm just praying that i'll do the right thing, i'll grow in my faith, and willingness to serve God, and someday i'll look back and think YEAH! it was totally worth it :)




without a shadow of a doubt i know that i love that man!


tis all.


---becky

mmmmmmmmm.

here's a song i really like, was just singing it in my head.

enjoy :)

Draw me close to you
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear you say that I'm your friend
You are my desire
No one else will do
Cause nothing else can take your place
To feel the warmth of your embrace
Help me find the way
Bring me back to you

You're all I want
You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want
Help me know you are near

laugh.

:]

today was a blast. ran some errands, and went to the mall with my sister. hoping that tmrw's interview goes well. yuhh! not sure what my weekend plans are.

my boyfriend is indeed amazing, fyi.

aside from that, nothing exciting happened today. all the excitement has been pushed to next weekend & i'm ok with that! Yuh!

my back is killing me!


I love being a daughter of God, granted I make mistakes like everyone else, but lately I feel like with this faith that I have now, I really can do anything I set my mind to.

life is indeed beautiful, i'm so blessed.


Since the creation of the world, God's invisible qualities -- his eternal power and divine nature -- have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.
— Romans 1:20



the man was too afraid to fly, so he never did land.







-beckers

gibberish.

take me to the lake, take me to the park, fly so high im in heaven alive, hit so hard i cant even feel, whats this about and tell me, is it real. show me where to go and what i'll find, give me an answer, show me a sign. take me by the hands and make me understand what exactly went down, tell me if you're waiting on the game, tell me if you're feelings are of shame. guide me to the light, teach me wrong from right, what is fate and is it ever to late to find it, am i too young or am i just right, come over and hold me close tonight. wipe my tears and justify my fears, and expect the same, and tell me we'll make it to fame. give me something to hope for, something to strive toward, don't let me down, because im hoping this is what ive found. dont tell me its all fake, dont tell me its okay unless you know ill see you again someday.

xoxo



sometimes the greatest things in life, cant be seen. its a contradiction within itself. you cant touch it, but you can feel it. you cant see it, but its there. i think apart of the reason why many people deny Christianity is because they are too afraid to trust in something that isnt concrete, well the Lord almighty is concrete, we just cant see him. we see his glory all around. why should we believe in God when the world is full of skepticism? because we need to live for him, not other people, stop caring what other people think. i had an amazing experience at school the other day, i inspired someone to speak up about their religion, instead of being ashamed of it. dont be ashamed of the gospel, its our light and salvation. be grateful for what we have and never deny our Savior, Peter denied him three times in one night, and realized that he couldnt survive alone, he needed the Lord and through him he brought 3000 people to be saved.



my definition of life:
living for others, pleasing God, waking up each day excited to see what God has in store, a series of trial & error, whether or not you're going to let satan hold your sins & regrets against you, or whether you're going to accept the fact that Christ forgives you, and holds nothing against you. having fun but keeping your intentions good, laughing at things that arent even funny, jammin out in the car, painting, and most of allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll


life is love. life is God. God is love.







hold your thoughts close and deep inside you, dear.
carved from the masters hand, of plain dirt and sand
with an intense emotion of spiritual being
guiding us carefully, not to crack the surface
walking aside us, hand in hand
going back to Christ, with all our might
an angelic smile, of encapsulating beauty
why are we drawn into this world of pain?
plump lips of ruby and red, tawny eyes, full of passion and ecstasy
is that my prophecy?
how cruel is it, that he tries to tempt, how amazing is it, that His love is everlasting
you have seen far too many broken dreams, to imagine your own
you've seen your world crumble to pieces, too ashamed to step out and pick them up
the pain is unbearable, simply untrue,
the pain isnt inside of you, its a thought that hes given to drive you from the Lord, a blessing in disguise, from a man of temptation and lies.
Lord of all the desires of my heart, no others can drive me to depart.
Your love, Oh Lord, fills my heart with the blood of the cross
whisper your words late at night, when you think no one is listening, He will be the light.
Hallowed be thy name, faith in you with no worries or shame, thy kingdom come, through you, all evil we shall overcome. Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven, pure and sincere, give us this day our daily bread, let it be our strength to continue in your name, forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors, i will owe no man anything but love and honor for one another, Lead us not unto temptation, but deliver us from the evil, for our conscience sake.









i'm feeling rather poetic, no?

not sure why, guess its all the sweetness in the tea, that i've been sipppin'.

first

of all...
JEFF: don't be reading my blog, please! bahaha.

in conclusion,


sincerely insincere,
beckers

forget.

Yippeeee.

Today was a great day! I had a wonderful lunch with my wonderful boyfriend. I love spending time with him, the conversations that we have, the quirky expressions that he makes, I love all of it! We had Pho (pronounced Fuh) which is a delicious Vietnamese noodle soup. Then I jetted off to the bank, had a pretty short shift today, 4 hours! It was a slow day, but time went by fast. Enjoyed some down time with my co-workers. After work, I decided not to go to prayer meeting, because I'm short on money this week & would rather not spend what I do have on gas. So I watched a movie & had dinner with the boyfriend. He makes me laugh so much that my lungs hurt, for once a body ache that I don't mind! Ha. He did get a call about the job promotion, they're going to call him back soon, so keep it in your prayers! As for me, no word...yet :) Keeping my fingers crossed! Hmm. My blog is so uninteresting...!

Listening to Taylor Swift, woot woot.

The BF bought me a purse for my bday, and of course I asked if I could have it early, hes just that wonderful! So yeahhh.

I'm so flippin' happy. Today was such a good day. 2 decent days in a row :) I'm starting to feel like my normal self again! woot woot!


I'm so blessed to be a loved daughter of God :)


sincerely sincere,
bex